I Want to Change My Smile

Hi everyone, 

It has been more than a year since I blogged. One day while browsing through Nuffnang website, I stumble across Invisalign Contest. This contest come in at the right time. I was thinking to go for my teeth alignment treatment before my pre-wedding photo-shoot next year. I want to have a bright smile in all the photos, and also side view profile of myself for my life memories. I never like to take photo of my side view because of my crooked teeth.

Hmm....let me show you how my teeth look like. *Sorry for making anyone out there throwing out after looking at my photo.

I remember I always lack of confident in doing presentation or even talking to my friends (newly make friends especially) because of my teeth. However, I overcame my low self esteem and put my head up to go through everything after I met him. 

He is my fiance aka Sabahking by most of the people. LOL.

Here come the most memorable story in which I managed to escape with embarrassing/ happy (cause after looking back, I feel so silly)  moment with a smile:

I remembered the day we met was our first year in UMS during Foreign Language registration. I was alone queue-ing up for the registration. He sat next two seats from me with his friends at that time. He came across me and tap my shoulder and asked for my name. I was thinking how come this guy is so rude? How can he tap on girl's shoulder like that wor? Haha...Of course that time, I was so shy to talk to him. He was a good looking handsome guy at that time. *Now become more mature and fat already. Haha.

My thought at that time was this guy must be a play boy, kept asking girls handphone number. We did exchange number too by the way. He is so friendly that we keep in touch all the time. One day, I make a move in asking him for badminton. Who knows, this stupid came all the way from his hostel and gave me his racket and shuttlecock only. I don't know how to react at that time, after he passed me this racket and went for soccer with his friends. To avoid further embarrassing moment, I quickly took out my handphone and called my friend to play with me. I told him I was waiting for my friend and escaped with a smile instead of feeling annoyed. He gave me a pat on my head and smile to me back. *I am still figuring out until now what he was thinking at that time.

Yes, we have been together more than 8 years now. Our feeling towards each other is still very strong and growing. We try our best to be there for each other although we did quarrel sometimes. I believe I have found my Mr. Right, is him, Sabahking. I feeling blessed with lots of love from him.

Happy or Unhappy

Hi there...

I hope everyone is doing great no matter where you are.

I'm doing great here with my family, bf and my career. I do define my job as my career.

Working as a R & D in a company really do bring a lot of knowledge, joy and I get to know a lot of people. Of course also get to different kind of people in this culture.

Recently, one of my colleague questioned me whether I'm happy with my job or not?

How to reassure whether I'm happy with my job or not? LOL. So SUBJECTIVE.

I answered her; Yeah...I love my job as my career. But sometimes, I do dislike my top management keep pushing/ urging me while the matter doesn't need to be so urgent as it is.

Again but,....my superior really treated me so good. He tried his best to guide me all the way from A to Z. I really glad to have this kind of superior for my first job. He gave enough of chances to work on my own sometimes.

Or maybe he really likes to explore or doing research as I? Curious ~

Overall, what do you think? Am I happy with my job?

Asam Laksa & Cendol at Melaka Jonker Street

It's Sunday. I have Sunday blues instead of Monday blues. =(

Head to Melaka for a bowl of asam laksa help to cure my bluessss..... I wish everything will be alright when tomorrow come. Life have to go on. I won't give up in spite of the bad words coming to me. *thick face*

Not to forget, hot weather like this die also must have this ice cendol. 

Okay, Sunday blues bye bye!!

Monday, here I come. Fighting!

I am who I am

How do you guys normally judges someone either you know or not him/her OR your family OR friends?

By their appearances? By their looks? By their outfits? Or by their hairdo? LOL...

Usually my first impression to other people: Nice, quiet, cool, clever, humble and good girl. (*I asked several of my friends, not I said so.) Feel so glad that  I only heard about the positive impression. (*Hope they didn't cheat me. Lol). 

In reality, after they knew me more than a year: Still nice, clever, humble and good girl, of course. But their's additional add in: talkative, friendly, noisy and crazy sometimes. LOLOL....

I do believe, the first time they met me, they judge me through my outlook, appearances and so on. Am I right? After being sometimes with me, they know my attitude. They know who I am? They know when is the right time to talk to me. They know the right words to talk to me. Ehemmm...not because I like hear good words. Sometimes, my friends really being mean to me. They said what they think is for my own good. I accepted their opinions all the time as I believe we ourselves sometimes need to learn to accept. Don't always REJECT!!! 

When you accept something, you receive something. Good things right? So learn to ACCEPT!! 

I feel grateful to have such a bunch of good friends/ soul mates. 

One day, I uploaded a new profile photo in my FB, then one of my so long lost contact friend sms-ed me. He said that I have change. "Change"? I asked back. He said I getting prettier. FHL. I jokingly replied, "yeah, last time I was so ugly and that's why you don't notice me". Haha... and then he started to arguably with me saying that's not he meant.

This is my up-to-date profile photo.

I told him, "no la... I never changed, I just become more of who I really am".

See....the same me only right? No change.

Or I should have tell him that's my twin sister. WTF!

My twins. So now you can identify which one is me since you said I changed? LOL...

Hi...is me again. Change again? LOL...

I am who I really am and that's my inner beauty. WTF~

Complicated relationship

What should I do? What should I do? I don't know what should I do next. I lost of idea. 

Sometime, I feel like looking for someone to talk to. But I don't find anyone suitable to talk to. If I found one, he/she no time for me. Sigh~

Right now my feelings are the mixture of: sad, stress, lost, heart break, curious.

I'm no more the cheerful and happy go lucky girl. 

Sometime, I wish I can really talk and share everything with him. I don't know the actual problem is from whom? He? Mine? I just need his ears for me sometimes. He don't had to really said those good or nice words to me. I just want him to listen to me. Know my problems. But I feel annoyed with his so called "consoling words". I don't know. Maybe I start couldn't take his flirting consoling words anymore. Once after I told him again how I felt with those words, he got mad with me. This really make my heart break. I thought you can accept every good and bad of me?   

Running away with tears dropping. Heart break~~~~~

Merdeka Holidays 2011

I began my holidays a week ealier than the actual day. Got my rest enough and spring cleaning before the holidays started. So that I can spent my holiday to the fullest.

On 30th Aug, I went out shopping with my bestie Min Yee. I love the outing with her. Early in the morning, woke up and get ready. This is the first time I drove alone by myself to Mid Valley. As first thought wany to buy macaroon for her. But the shop closed that day. So, next time I buy you okay?

Reached Mid Valley around 1015am but Min Yee was late that day. She took train all the way from Seremban, but Malaysia's KTM service was lousy as usual. Train delayed and packed with people. Pity her stuck in the train for 2 hours.

As she reached, we headed for lunch. So co-incident that I met Viana, my unimate. Such a long time not meet up. It's happened so sudden when I turned my head, at the same time Viana looked at me. The world is so small.

Me and Viana.

Shop around Mid Valley looking for darling's birthday present and ours shop list. Feel tired walking around, we headed to Starbuck for our coffee break and decide whether to buy product for our pretty and younger looking skin.

Thanks for the Starbucks my dear Min Yee.

Min Yee dear.

She can patiently walk around and search things with me. We also shared a lot of opinions and on certain things.

On 31st August, went to BookFest@KLCC with darling. Thought wanna buy quite a number of books but end up only one.

Although I feel freaking tired these few days but I fully enjoyed it.

Signing off~

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Way back to love

Hi peeps,

I'm back finally. It had been a long time since my last blog post. I was busy with my research works all the half year. Good news to be, things are working very well. Almost done half part (60 - 70%) of my research works. I hope it can be finish soon. Hope you guys are doing well too.

There were so many happenings recently in my life. It's goes upside down. I feel restless and think too much all the time. I wish everything does not happened before.

I feel grateful and lucky that someone still be there for me throughout the hardest time in my life. Placing good advice and be my good listener. Although he was tired after work, he still don't mind patiently listen to my problems. As he always said "if there is nothing sad happened in our life, there won't be happy moment in our life. So, just take it as part of our life routine."  =)

Wanna knows who am I talking about? 

Is HIM. My king of life 

Thanks for being there all the time when I need you. Although I always throw tantrums at you but you still cheers me up all the time. Love you so much.

Spent 2 weeks (weekends) continuously with darling. Watched one movie per week. I'm so happy with that.

Chinese New Year 2011

Almost one week past for Chinese New Year. Do tell me that you are still in Chinese New Year mood =)

Chinese New Year is a celebration where everyone of the family will come home for reunion.

I had a great celebration with my lovely family and love ones. Laughter and joyful filled the environment.

Of course not to forget foods and ang pows =)

How much do you guys got for ang pows money?

This year my family planned to take another family portraits to replace the old ones. Everyone changes a lot and this is a good thing. We are growing bigger and bigger, holding a heavier burden in our life.

Let's all our hopes and wishes guide ours path, not our fears!!

Cheers~~ 

Proton Malaysia Open @ Kuala Lumpur

My first time been to badminton tournament (live) in Kuala Lumpur. Feel so excited.

I went there with Badminton die hard fans, Sabahking. He knows everything for badminton.

We couldn't bought it online and thus we went a day earlier before semi finals to buy tickets.

Proton Malaysia Open 2011.

I had wanted to watch Dato' Lee Chong Wei vs Lin Dan match (live) and that's why we bought the semi final tickets. 

Sadly, the next morning got to know the news about Lin Dan's abdomen muscles injury and thus couldn't make it for the match. Chen Long replaced Lin Dan's places. By the way, it's a good match though.

Our tickets-Lower tier seating. Premier seats were sold out.

See? Crowded with badminton fans.

I felt a little bit bored for a few matches. Dato' Lee Chong Wei was the last match of the day which roughly began at 530pm.

So, you can imagine that I had been sitting in the stadium from 2pm till 530pm, just to wait to see that match.
*So, can I conclude myself as Dato' Lee Chong Wei die hard fans?*

When Dato' Lee Chong Wei approached the hall, the supports from his fans filled the hall - 1 Malaysia.

I can feel that we, Malaysian are very united.

Dato' Lee Chong Wei in action.

Hardly to snap the photos of him, was sitting too far away from the court. KNS =.=

I'm enjoy very much watching the match in live. Sabahking said he managed to see Dato' Lee Chong Wei's tactics.

* Question marks on head*

Happy New Year 2011

Wow~

Time flies by very fast. It is a brand new year for me.
  
As for me 2010 was an amazing year. I met lots of awesome people and lots of things changed. 


How you celebrated new year eve? I celebrated with my beloved darling. He purposely traveled all the way from Johor to KL. We spent our day shopping and watching Vampire Warriors in Sunway Pyramid. Then, we had our dinner in Wong Kor Char Chan Teng. Although it's just an ordinary outing, but I feel happy for it because I got to celebrate my new year with my darling.

I had achieved few of my 2010 resolutions. So, feels so grateful about it.

I hope it will be same goes to this year resolutions.

My 2011 year resolutions:

1) Finish my research works by end of June.

2) Finish my writing by end of Dec (finish my master works).

3) Got a good result for my master CGPA.

4) Travel to overseas (atleast one place) with either family or darling.

5) Save more money. (which means don't spend too much).

6) Gain some weight.

7) Spend more time with family and friends.

8) Be more understand and considerable gf.

9) Find a proper job.

10) Complete all of the lists.

Is it too much for my new year resolutions. I just got a lot of things need to accomplish.

Looking forward to a bright and exciting 2011. Happy New Year to all!

Borneo Kellybays, Tuaran, Sabah

Last week, I went to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah to attend Sabahking's convocation. Kota Kinabalu has changed so much after I left there for about a year ago (during my last year convocation). Yet, I still feel Sabah is a nice place to be.

The next day after the his convocation, Sabahking brought me and his family to Borneo Kellybays located at Tuaran, Sabah. Kellybays is one of the most abundant mangrove swamp forest in Malaysia that boasts with the fascinating ecosystem. It is about 40 minutes travel from Kota Kinabalu city.

We walked along the wooden bridge to the waiting special roofed bamboo raft which is the only transportation to cross over the river to Kellybays. Along the way, we noticed there are colourful crabs beneath under the bridge.

Kellybays.

 There are many activities visitors have the opportunity to enjoy. For instances, camping, water sport, cultural show, blow pipes, batik painting and etc.

Snapping photo while waiting for the raft to come from Kellybays.

Our bamboo raft arrived.

It's only took 5 minutes to reach our destination. I have a feeling of total getaway from the hassle of city, KL to relax myself. Stress to maximum for my master research.

I'm enjoy the breeze and sun.

Throw in the cage to catch the crabs.

The interior of the Kellybays' restaurant.

As we reached Kellybays, Sabahking brought me to batik painting area. I painted two batiks. Quite nice. But the photos are not available. While waiting for the batik to dry up, we have a competition with the blowpipe activity. The result, Sabahking win the game. I might said I'm NOT "not talented" in this game, just I don't have the potential to become "sakai". (Sabahking, you know what I mean?)

Other than that, at Kellybays, we can occupied with water sports such as banana boat ride, bamboo rafting, surfing and lots more.

Water skate board-ing.

Not to forget, after half day playing and fooling around, we need to recharge energy and our whetting stomach. Kellybays restaurant serves local delicacies. On the day we went, they served us ala carte of local foods. They also served buffet, according to Sabahking who went there last time with his coursemates. 

Top (left-right): Salad, refreshing water. Bottom: Mushroom sup, rice.

Top (left-right): Sesame chicken wings, curry mutton. Bottom: Sweet sour fish and curry squids.

Top (left-right): Sweet curry chicken, mixed vegetables. Bottom: Banana, watermelon and papaya.

After the lunch, we went for banana boat riding. This is the most exciting game. I fell into the river twice while Sabahking fell thrice. =) It's so funny to see only one of the people fell while the rest is still on the boat.

Here, you can go for many times of banana boat that you want. It's had been included in the payment. Why not get yourself wet enough before going back. 

At 3pm, they served us tea break with teh tarik and roti canai.

My tea break.

Batik printing area.

Blow pipe area.

Take a rest while enjoying the breeze on the sea, a great moment to be.

Relaxing on the sleeping net.

Scenery of the sea.

Bye to Kellybays.

Sabahking checking out the traps that we throw in earlier. We don't manage to get anything.

Kellybays is a nice place to be either with your family or friends. I love Sabah.

WTF Girl

Yesterday was the most busy and angry's day I have. Since morning, so many calls from chemical companies regarding my orderings. So, troublesome!!! Running here and there, up and down. Wtf~

The main point is not here. My f*ck out point is this:

One of my labmate, WTF gal, a PhD student. This semester she don't get the place in UKM hostel yet. So, she got to travel everyday from Cheras to UKM, Bangi (only take 30 mins). Because of this, she tends to not to come lab nowadays and maybe because she can't do anything here (Thanks, god. She not in the lab area). If she is in the lab area, she kept on ordering people to do this and that. Not only me, she did ordered other Malay gals. Of course, we got annoyed with that la...Grr...

Hmm..yesterday she came over the lab around 6pm. She found out that I need to ask Dato's signature for the chemicals purchase. So, the WTF gal gave me a call. First call, I ignored. Then, second call..again..Ok..this time I answered just to know what happened. The first things she talked to me regarding my quotation of chemicals la...Then, she moved to her things. Asking...opps..no..should said ordering me to get the signature for her scholarship application as well. WTF!!!

Ok..I told that I might be busy this week and I guess hard to get it. She said you also need to get the signature then I should get for her as well. Ok..Fine..WTF!! After I get the signature, I need to help her pass it to dean and get the dean's signature as well. WTF!!! It's just like I'm the one applying the scholarship and not her. Does she share the scholarship with me after she get it? WTF!!

Why can't she does it herself since she is damn free at home. You think people are free like you? How old are you? Are you retarded? WTF!!!

*Sorry for the so many WTF!! post. I'm so....pissed off with all this. *

If you are me, I'm sure you will pissed off too, right? Can't blame me.

WTF!!

Stay Away

July is gonna be the most busy month for me. Everyday kept on doing something else. I really need a break. Either doing my research works or going somewhere else. Now, finally I fall sick and still I have to go for my lab and etc.

Having fever and bad flu for the past few days. Today, wake up in the morning and I found my right eye so pain. Went to toilet and take a look at it.

OMG~eye swollen and reddish. Hardly open my eye at that time. Still I need to attend lecture at 9am. *Sigh*

I just feel to lazy to start everything now. Lab works not so smooth as I wish. Some delays in chemicals' arrival. That what the researchers will have to face all the time. But, our supervisor won't understand how it is feel. They will kept on pushing from behind, urging you to get the result for he/ she as soon as possible. This was the part I HATE the most. I wish to shut back the supervvisor: Why don't you do it yourself?

2 years is so fast to fly by. It's had been half year for my master and I still left 1 1/2 years. Gosh~~

I running with the time now. So, please stay away from me all the idiots, sicks and problems. Let me finish everything. I don't care.....

Spotted the swollen eye of me. T____T

I need my life to be colourful again. Now my life is so dull in colour. Okay...I know you are getting boring with my blog cause y life is boring too, man...

Hectic Life

Had been really busy nowadays. Busy with so much of things, 24/7, from monday to sunday, from morning to night.

Weekdays and weekends need to have my lab work. No one could understand how hard in handling animals and cell works in once. It's had been a hectic life for me. During weekends, I still have a lot of gathering with my buddies.

I need a break.

There is no HOLIDAY in my dictionary. Semester begin yesterday and I started my lecture today. I was thinking whether I can handle all those stuffs in proper way or not. Sometimes, I think that working is much more better than study. Doing research thing is not as easy as others think. I'm always worry that I can't finish it in 2 years time. Until now, I don't have any results for my study. The progress for my research only 30% where I started plant extraction, cell culture and doing trial for animal studies.

GOSH~~ pray for me, please. Blessing~~

Was looking for someone that really can share anything with me =). Anyone?

Ya...I got my hair short now. Not so short la...Nice? Pretty?

Mama's Day

*Belated post for mama's day cause I only manage get the photos from my brother.*
Date: 09/05/2010 (Sunday)

Mother's day was a special occasion for the mothers in the world.

I feel happy this year cause I can celebrate it with my mama this time. Last three years, I don't get to celebrate with my mama cause I was in KK, Sabah. I just can sms her to wish her for that day.

But, this year is different. I celebrated it with her and my family although er jie can't make it. We cook dinner for that. Mama need not to work out for everything cause she was the queen that day. =)

Not to forget, we bought her cake too. =)

Chocolate cake.

Mama was my best friend since I was young. We can chat whatever kind of topics. Besides, she was very supportive. She used to taught me when I don't know how to do homework during my school time. She is the one who do all the house chores, cookings and so on in the house. She is the who wake up the earliest one to prepare breakfast for us everyday.

I still remembered that I once disappointed her during my high school life. I was very stupid at that time. Knowing a guy that are not worth for me, make my mum angry and cried. I feel very guilty when think back of it. We argued and I shouted out all the bad words to her. But, she forgive me at the end.

She was the one who accompanied to KK, Sabah during my university's first year there. She helped bring all my sutffs. She accompanied until all my registration there. Then, she went back to KL on her own. I cried when I see her walked away from me. She always give me a call everyday at that time asking whether I took my meals and got enough mney to spend or not. Cause I don't know to take care of myself. * But after 3 years overthere, I become an independent girl. This was my promise to her so that she will not so worry about me.*

Not to forget also, she was the one who attended my convocation's day. She dressed me up early in the morning for my big day. She has wanted to see me to graduate, wearing my robe. I thanked her during that day cause without her I won't able to walk until here. After graduate, I was in dilemma whether to work first or study master. She has given me so many suggestions and be very supportive for me. She accompanied to UKM to look for my supervisor cause I don't the places there.

Thank you for being my wonderful mama and I love you mama. Muacks....

Some photos of the day:

Mama & Papa.

Three of us.(without my er jie cause she was outstation).

My little doggie also want to celebrate it. LOL

Happy Mother's Day, mama. Love you always.